I will be away from the internet for a long time. Everytime I go online, I feel like I do something to continuously self-destruct and I dwell on this crap too much that it has affected work. I've already been called on my poor performance by my boss. As it is with the economy, I cannot afford to lose my job as well. I will see if I write during the weekends, but in all honesty, I'm trying to remain occupied so I don't think about it 24/7.
So far I've lost faith in all men. Every man I talk to reveal to me that they have cheated before. Is it true or I'm a surrounded by losers? I know I am not going to be able to trust anyone again. It just won't happen.
I look forward to the single life, with or without male companionship.
So for now, I'm out to lunch.
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I think that is a good idea. Stay positive and like I said earlier work on the relationship you have with yourself. Learn new things, languages and just be you for a while. No rush for love again it's already within you.
ReplyDeleteYou need to take care of yourself - and if that is accomplished by staying off the internet, then it is what it is.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself and good luck.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.
ReplyDeleteStaying busy is a good tactic to keep your mind off things, but if you need to vent and be upset- let yourself every now and then. You have to deal with the pain anyway, might as well be sooner rather than later
I am so sorry you are going through all of this, but you can get through it. You know who you are, and you know how you need to deal with this.
ReplyDeleteYou have been amazingly strong through all of this! You are a great person, now prove it to the world!
Many men (and women) do cheat and don't get caught. Ignorance is not bliss though. You are so lucky and you don't realize this and you aren't in a mental state tp appreciate it now, but one day.. not tomorrow.. maybe not next month... but sooner than you think, you are going to thank god that you found this out when you did. You have your whole life ahead of you. Patience is a virtue and if you can keep going and stay strong through each setback, you will be rewarded and grow tremendously from this.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you. I have been praying for you as you go through this. My prayer is that you have the strength to get through each day, the continued courage to have those tough conversations, that you find ways to grieve healthily, and that with time you will be filled with peace and hope again. There are no easy answers right now, but you have many people who care about you.
ReplyDeleteNo no no, not all men are like this, just like all women aren't like this. some men and women cheat, most do not. The ones who do don't deserve the people who don't. Cheating is the most selfish act. The person who is betrayed is the one who feels all the pain. No matter how much he says he is hurting, don't believe him. He is only hurting because he was caught. Now you get to live your life with someone who actually loves you.
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